Hai. Assalamualaikummm. :)

Erm. Erm. Erm. Banyak gila nak update niyh. Macam2 dalam kepala niyh .But its okay. One by one. Hehe. So tonight i ada temujanji. Insyallah new project will coming on. Nak cuti sekolah niyh. Whoah ! Yeahhh. Just another one week then cuti lah ! Almost to two month okayh. Rasa nak bercuti BUT budget maybe ? So bak kata one of my good friends suggest i simpan duet. He just like my personal banker. Tapi garang seyh ! Yela. Penting gak nak menyimpan niyh.Takkan nak pergi terkontang kanting je kan ? Takpe, Sabar hati. Bila2pun boleh jalan, boleh bercuti. Hehe. Lagipun ada banyak stuff-ing yang dalam kertas list niyh. Hehehe. :) So, nak stuff ke nak bercuti ? STUFF ! :B

SO. Dah hujung2 tahun niyh (act dah start since last October musim kahwin niyh ), memang ramai lah nak mendirikan rumahtangga. Alhamdulillah. Dah sampai seru, dah sedia nak pikul tanggungjawab and dah boleh nak bina masjid. Benda elok kan, Elok dipermudahkan. Sekalung tahniah diucapkan buat kawan2 yang sudah pun ke jinjang pelamin and Insyallah akan mengakhiri zaman bujang akhir tahun niyh. Tahniah. Tahniah. Will pray yang perkahwinan anda semua dihujani rahmat Allah dan berkekalan hingga ke akhir hayat. But why im not coming ? Hehehe. Ada yang kata i niyh maybe jealous, sakit mata tengok orang kahwin sedangkan i masih single. Whoah. NO ! Sorryyyy. Bukan taknak datang, but ... Hmmm. Busy maybe ? Takut maybe ? Terkedu maybe ? Aaarrghhh. Macam2. So, let me keep this reason by my own. :)

Now, i sedang try very hard nak kikis this typical mind yang selalu perempuan fikir.

"Man are same"
"Man are not ready for any commitment"
"Man are like to cheat. They will not enough with one girl"
"There's no gentleman in this world"
"Man are like to make a girl suffering when trap on in man's love"
"Some girls suffering much with a man"
"Man are gila seks ! :'O"
"Man are like to take advantage on girl sebab mereka fikir perempuan itu lemah"
"Man are sweet talker but refuse to menepati janji"
"Man are like to control and maybe memukul apabila sesuatu yang dihajati tak tercapai ?"
AND "Girls are always be a slave of man"

And yeah. I mengaku yang i pun ada this pemikiran. Dan because of this i stop thinking about man and i'm not ready to have any man in my life. Especially after what was happen to me after last five month. (Whoah ! Counting. Hahaha. ). Sebab i takot bila i dah seriously take that relationship as my full commitment, i really work on it and tiba2 it just end up with a tears. But kadang2 memang ada rasa nak hidup berdua. Anyway, BEST tau hidup berdua. Learn about each other, complete to each other life. Tambahan dalam alam perkahwinan kan ? Tapi this is not easy. Really. Nak buang this type of mind set kan, memang sangat2lah susah. Sometimes, i just force myself to try learn about man and love them. Ehem. I cuba lah berkawan dengan mereka. But finally i end up this. "I have no feeling with them at all AND THEY ARE ALL SAME". Kenapa ? Sebab kadang2 lelaki itu sendiri. Mungkin  mereka belum matang lagi nak menilai mana kaca, mana permata. Is it ? But kalau nak yang perfect all the time, mana ada. Memang takde lah kannn. And kadang2 bila kita dah minat, suka and so on this man akan cuba nak main tarik tali. Masa mula2 je melayan macam nak rak. Bila kita dah suka, mula jauhkan diri. Haha. Why complicated like this ? Kadang2 pulak bila lelaki niyh nak kat kita, kita pulak yang tak berminat. Mulalah 1001 alasan muncul. Seriously, i memang mengalami krisis kedua2nya. Kenapa ha ? Sampai sekarang tak boleh nak get the answer. My bff's cakap, i memilih. Yang taknak kat i, i nak. Yang nak kat i, i tolak. Hoho. Entah. Taktau la apesal. Sometimes i just think, maybe i yang belum bersedia 100% sebenarnya nak hidup berdua, Like to have a partner but not a love. Mungkin i masih lagi sakit ? Sedangkan orang yang bertahun2 putus cinta pun masih lagi sakit. Ini kan pula i. Hehe. So. Get relax on it. Follow by the flow. Cuba buang this typical mind. Berfikiran lebih terbuka dan cuba menerima seseorang itu seadanya. No one perfect. Lagipun lelaki. Lagi dilarang, lagi dia buat. #Facts ! But maybe not now lah nak bercintan cintun. Mahal cinta niyh. :)

P/S : Malas nak ber couple bagai. Nak menikah terus. Heyyy. JOM NIKAH ? Takkan nak macam tu kan. Karang orang kata meroyan pulak. Haha. Tapi kan. Kadang perempuan memang kena approach lelaki, Kalau anda betul2 dah buat keputusan lah. Fikir masak2.
*Tiba teringat, i ada terbaca one of d person that i followed kat Twitter. She's following me first. So i tengoklah profile dia. Okayh. UPSR Candidates but penuh dengan ayat2 cinta and one of her tweets yang i tak boleh nak lupakan is
"Budak darjah 3 tu wish dekat aku and cakap, 'Adik doakan akak cepat2 dapat jodoh ye'."
And i like ? Whoah. Please kill me ! Im 23 but still single. Apakahhh ? Pengsan sambil berbuih mulut. Hahahahaha. Ops. Lebih gelak. GTG.

PBS just kill me. Akhir tahun banyak gila kerja yang perlu disiapkan sebelum sekolah tutup. Dengan kursus penataran lagi. Have to done it at least by next Wednesday. Post niyh tuk realese tension jap. Hehehe. Legaaaaa. :P

Have a nice day ! Bye. <3